Why Do You Worry?
Happy Friday, everyone!
I recently found myself sitting on my bedroom carpet, eyes swollen and nose stuffy from all the tears I had shed as I prayed and told the Lord about my disappointments and worries. Some of my disappointments I felt like where because of Him and other disappointments I felt came from Him not answering certain prayer requests and expectations in my heart. There were even disappointments that caused me to worry about life decisions as a whole. Still sitting on the carpet, I quietly heard Him say to me, “ Why do you worry?” I sat there dumbfounded at His response. I thought and thought some more realizing that I didn’t know why I worried. I sat there slightly baffled and finally said out loud, “I don’t know why I worry Lord.”
Have you ever purchased a product or eaten something you were really excited about and expectant for, yet when you received it, it was disappointing? Better yet, have you ever prayed for something, were expectant and then it didn’t come through? Those moments are tough. Those moments can be painful. However, those moments of disappointment are the times when we should be trusting in Christ even more.
Recently, I took a massive leap of faith in my career! I have never been more confident about a career decision like this one. Before making that decision, I told the Lord in full confidence in prayer, “I know you’re going to come through in this way for me. I am excited, expectant and ready.” As the days passed on I stayed faithful and expectant, yet, nothing was happening. When I realized it wasn’t going to happen the way I had expected, new disappointment set in. However, this disappointment was different. This disappointment triggered a different kind of worry. This disappointment made me angry. If I’m being honest, it made me angry with God. I am someone who has big faith and generally big faith for others, however, for myself, I don’t always have that same big faith. It’s something the Holy Spirit and I have been working through privately. So when I came to the Lord with this big faith moment and a heart full of expectancy and it didn’t happen, I felt defeated and hurt.
Let’s go back to my bedroom carpet where the Father spoke to my heart and asked me, “Why do you worry?” My honest response to Him was just as shocking. The Lord in His kindness reminded me of Matthew 6:25-34. If you have sometime, read it. The verses that stood out to me say, “ Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?” As I read those verses, I began to cry again and repent for the worry in my heart. His response to me was so pure and a gentle reminder that He sees me and He knows what I need. Not only does He know what I need, He knows what I want too. However, He wants to me TRUST Him! He wants me to know that He values me more than the birds of the air and will always come through for me even when I don’t see it yet.
I don’t know if you guys have ever felt this way before…where your disappointment feels defeating and your worry feels suffocating. It happens sometimes, and those times of disappointment and worry are actually the times we are to be pressing into His presence even more and trusting Him with all that we have. It’s when we decide in our hearts that we have full confidence in Him regardless of what it looks like and know that He will come through. We, His children, are more valuable than the birds of the air and any of His other creation. He will take care of you! Trust Him. He’s got your back.
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