Weathered đź’›
“How sweet it is to trust in Jesus
To know you, I mean really know you
Father, Son and Holy Shepherd
A love so deep, it can’t be measured
A love that’s real, a love that’s weathered”
I was washing some dishes this morning, asking the Holy Spirit what I should post today, when I was reminded of a post I wrote a few months ago but wasn't sure I would share it. When I felt the Holy Spirit tell me to share it, I was a bit unsure because it doesn’t have much to do with cleaning and it’s personal. Interestingly enough, this post, as in the last few, touches on the topic of prayer.
Earlier this year, January 28th to be specific, I called a very good friend of mine to let her know I needed some help. I told her a few different things but the thing I remember the most was confiding in her that for the first time in my walk with Christ I felt dry. I felt so dry and damaged in my walk with Christ. I felt like dry, cracked and weathered skin from cold elements. Skin that cracks and is flaky. Now I’ve been following Jesus for almost eight years now. Throughout my walk with Christ there have been moments when I have felt empty, lazy or not as on fire, but I am typically able to turn it back on. However, this was different. I felt dry and brittle. The part that was most upsetting was that it wasn’t going away. It didn’t matter how much I read my Bible, prayed or worshiped with all my heart, I was still dry. Truthfully, I think I was a bit disappointed about some areas in my life and was overly tired mentally and emotionally. It’s like my soul was dry.
Now I will say this, praise God I have been taught by the Holy Spirit, His word and by my parents to always stay in connection with Him. That connection comes by being in His word, praying, worshipping and praising despite what I am feeling. It has been and will continue to be a lifeline especially as life happens.
Two days later, Sunday morning at church, we sang the chorus of a song called Weathered By Bethel Music. The same lyrics from the beginning of this post.
As we sang the song as a church, I got down on my knees and wept. Wept like ugly cry, like choking cry, shoulders moving up and down at how hard I was crying. As I knelt before the Lord in worship, I felt the Holy Spirit tell me “I am with you even in your dryness. I love you deeply. I’m still with you and I won’t leave you. We’re in this relationship together.”
The word weathered by definition means “seasoned by exposure to the weather or change in color or form over a period of time because of the effects of the sun, wind or other weather conditions.” I knew in that moment, the Holy Spirit was letting me know that He was with me no matter what! It did not matter how I was feeling. He was letting me know that He is and will always be a very present help and with me in every season. God the Father, God the Son and God the Holy Spirit had decided a long time ago, before I was ever a thought and before the world was even created, that They were going to stick by me no matter what. They were going to be available and with me in every season of my life. Not only were they going to be with me, but they were going to love me through it all!
I have two questions for you guys that are reading this.
Have you ever felt like I have felt? Dry, weathered by life, etc?
Do you know that the Creator of this world still desires to shower you with love and show you how much He loves you regardless of how you feel?
If you don’t know that then ask Him to teach you how to believe that. He is with you. You are in the greatest romance and relationship of all time with the Lord.
